For her
Had we listened
to the voice within us,
we would have pursued
careers in diplomacy.
I would have studied
African languages,
as once intended,
majoring in Ethiopian.
You would have gone
to Moscow, as your father
had planned for you,
to ultimately join the corps.
We would have met
at a party hosted by the
Kenian embassy, both
unattached, and shared
a taxi when leaving.
We had the driver
take us to Sebastian’s,
where we had cocktails,
looked into each
other’s eyes, eventually
kissing across the chasm
between the communist
and capitalist worlds,
allowing the voice witin us
to speak and outline brightly
our future.
That did not happen, though.
All we have now is
an obscured variant, with the
feeling of potential lost
and but a skeleton of what
the scheme of fate and time
might have had in store.
We both muted that voice.
– Leonard “Had We But” Blumfeld (© 2010)
Written for The thing you didn’t choose, napowrimo #11 and Vicarious at One Single Impression.
I can't even begin to tell you how much I relate to this..
ReplyDeleteSeems like my life story.
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I guess we all have a lot of 'could have been's in our lives.
ReplyDeleteLoved the way this was written!
There are so many ifs in live aren't there?
ReplyDeletePamela
Nice!!! I love seeing you track the what if theme and then return to the present. (I also relate to this, as I once thought I'd follow the ex-pat route--but didn't. It's hard not to think about the excitment that it would've brought.)
ReplyDeletePhew, "If only!" Nicely thought out!
ReplyDeleteHmm, lamenting about what could have been. How many times have I done this. In the end, I go forward on the path I have choses.
ReplyDelete"If only" seems to be the prelude to every other thought I have lately.
ReplyDeleteThis one resonates strongly. If only...
ReplyDeleteThis is just as vicarious as the writer...:)
ReplyDeleteYeah, why, why have we not and we wish to?
Everyone feels to be one like in your poem!
Thanks for sharing such wonderful thoughts!