Sunday, December 27, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Do I call it dare?
What have I dared this year?
Like a trapeze artist without a backup net, I dared to break off a relationship with a woman who was in love with me (at least she told me so, and it looked like it to me). Why? I did not love her the same way. I was in love with her briefly, but the initial infatuation faded within a few weeks, to be replaced by thoughts of the woman I was really in love with, had loved for close to a year and had attempted to forget by starting a relationship with another.
Alas, my beloved one told me in very clear words that she did not reciprocate (on one occasion) and that she saw no future for us (on another occasion).
Still, I dared to follow my heart and received, in the course of this year, ups and downs galore, a few days of happiness with my beloved and other days of piercing pain.
All in all I often feel like I'm living in two worlds (similar to J. Nash in A Beautiful Mind) that are both cohesive in themselves ... but of which only one is real. Yes, you guessed it, it's the one with the piercing pain.
Hopefully it's all good for something. Some learning experience perhaps.
Daring or idiocy? That is the question.
- Leonard "Truth or Dare" Blumfeld
Written upon inspiration by Sunday Scribblings. Many of the ups and downs mentioned are recorded in this blog in more or less subtly encrypted form.
Like a trapeze artist without a backup net, I dared to break off a relationship with a woman who was in love with me (at least she told me so, and it looked like it to me). Why? I did not love her the same way. I was in love with her briefly, but the initial infatuation faded within a few weeks, to be replaced by thoughts of the woman I was really in love with, had loved for close to a year and had attempted to forget by starting a relationship with another.
Alas, my beloved one told me in very clear words that she did not reciprocate (on one occasion) and that she saw no future for us (on another occasion).
Still, I dared to follow my heart and received, in the course of this year, ups and downs galore, a few days of happiness with my beloved and other days of piercing pain.
All in all I often feel like I'm living in two worlds (similar to J. Nash in A Beautiful Mind) that are both cohesive in themselves ... but of which only one is real. Yes, you guessed it, it's the one with the piercing pain.
Hopefully it's all good for something. Some learning experience perhaps.
Daring or idiocy? That is the question.
- Leonard "Truth or Dare" Blumfeld
Written upon inspiration by Sunday Scribblings. Many of the ups and downs mentioned are recorded in this blog in more or less subtly encrypted form.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Bleak house
Bleak house,
mean hiccup,
queer lantern.
Bleak approach,
looming hiccup,
queer sax.
Bleak landing,
dazed hiccup,
queer knack.
– Leonard "García" Blumfeld
Written to involve Bleak, Hiccup and Queer from 3WW in various. somewhat García Lorcaesque ways.
mean hiccup,
queer lantern.
Bleak approach,
looming hiccup,
queer sax.
Bleak landing,
dazed hiccup,
queer knack.
– Leonard "García" Blumfeld
Written to involve Bleak, Hiccup and Queer from 3WW in various. somewhat García Lorcaesque ways.
Such an intense exchange of glances
and now I wonder about sustainability!
Am I the ultimate sentimental myth maker I sometimes think I am? (Based on the fact that I see whole landscapes where others merely perceive a wall.)
Nevertheless: my love looks stunning today – I'm awed and humbled that such beauty exists.
– Leonard "Mythologist" Blumfeld
Am I the ultimate sentimental myth maker I sometimes think I am? (Based on the fact that I see whole landscapes where others merely perceive a wall.)
Nevertheless: my love looks stunning today – I'm awed and humbled that such beauty exists.
– Leonard "Mythologist" Blumfeld
Saturday, December 12, 2009
So grave
"Something grave happened today!"
"What do you mean?"
"Your lithe body is no longer lithe. Did someone offend you? Did I offend you?"
She cried on my shoulder.
"You would never offend me. You couldn't possibly."
"You never know. – But tell me what happened."
"It's silly. I'm sure I'm exaggerating. Except that I can't help but feeling down like this."
"Tell me."
"My daughter loathes me, and I got my income tax statement back today. I owe them money and I don't have any! How can this be?"
"Now, now. We'll look at this one at a time. First off, why do you think your daughter loathes you?"
She told me about both troubles, and some of her litheness returned as she was doing so and we were thinking of ways for her to come out of the fog – familial and financial.
– Leonard "Some Shoulder to Cry on" Blumfeld
Written around grave, lithe and offend from 3WW.
"What do you mean?"
"Your lithe body is no longer lithe. Did someone offend you? Did I offend you?"
She cried on my shoulder.
"You would never offend me. You couldn't possibly."
"You never know. – But tell me what happened."
"It's silly. I'm sure I'm exaggerating. Except that I can't help but feeling down like this."
"Tell me."
"My daughter loathes me, and I got my income tax statement back today. I owe them money and I don't have any! How can this be?"
"Now, now. We'll look at this one at a time. First off, why do you think your daughter loathes you?"
She told me about both troubles, and some of her litheness returned as she was doing so and we were thinking of ways for her to come out of the fog – familial and financial.
– Leonard "Some Shoulder to Cry on" Blumfeld
Written around grave, lithe and offend from 3WW.
The she is warming up to me after all fib
For my usual recipient of poetry
– Leonard Blumfeld (© 2009)
Based on a true occurrence a while back.
How
nice!
She did
not ask and
simply took a stick
of gum from the shelf in the car
as I was driving
her home. A
tender
start.
Yea!
nice!
She did
not ask and
simply took a stick
of gum from the shelf in the car
as I was driving
her home. A
tender
start.
Yea!
– Leonard Blumfeld (© 2009)
Based on a true occurrence a while back.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
The little vampire fib
Have
I
got my-
self one more
little vampire to
suck blood and keep me addicted?
– Leonard "Sucker" Blumfeld
I
got my-
self one more
little vampire to
suck blood and keep me addicted?
– Leonard "Sucker" Blumfeld
Sunday, December 6, 2009
The without you fib
For A.B.
How
long
will I
find ways in
myself to suffer
spending so much time without you?
– Leonard “Without Her” Blumfeld (© 2009)
Posted as an entry for Sunday Scribblings' Weird. What's the connection – what does this fibonacci have to do with weirdness? Well, it's about the weird game of perceived true love, perceived self-deception, renewed hope, renewed attraction, inability to let go I've been playing with and against myself for close to two years now. What stamina! That is weird, isn't it?
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Saturday in November
Oh what a nuisance leaves can be.
Even though they're pretty the way they've turned yellow and brown.
Especially on a dry, surpringly warm Saturday in latish November.
But they also get soaked and ground-sticky and broom-resistant.
Razor-edge-of-time experience reported here.
Yes, this weekend it's my turn to clean the common areas of the building.
I've only done the outside part of it, and now have to leave because I'm going to a friend's open studio show in Ludwigsburg.
There's always tomorrow for the rest, right? Right.
Leonard "On Razor's Edge" Blumfeld
Even though they're pretty the way they've turned yellow and brown.
Especially on a dry, surpringly warm Saturday in latish November.
But they also get soaked and ground-sticky and broom-resistant.
Razor-edge-of-time experience reported here.
Yes, this weekend it's my turn to clean the common areas of the building.
I've only done the outside part of it, and now have to leave because I'm going to a friend's open studio show in Ludwigsburg.
There's always tomorrow for the rest, right? Right.
Leonard "On Razor's Edge" Blumfeld
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